Consistency and Balance

I'm sitting at work - I know - shouldn't be writing a blog post but I am.  I'm alone in the office and it's hard to be motivated sometimes.  I have so many thoughts circulating through my head and just want to get something written down and hopefully, out of my mental, circular highway!

CONSISTENCY and BALANCE

Consistency:  steadfast adherence to the same principles, course, form, etc.
Balance:  mental steadiness or emotional stability; habit of calm behavior, judgment, etc.

Oh my,...  My life seems so far removed from the definitions of these two very common words.  Most of the time I feel like I live on a roller coaster.  Up, down, turning this way and that way, sometimes sharply and abruptly.  Then climbing that steep hill again back up to the top where the ride begins again.  I want so badly to get off of this ride.  Thrill rides like this are not to my liking any longer.  Maybe in my younger years but not here in my "meant to be" beautiful golden years.  (I turned 50 in May)

Today I am going to take a stand.  A stand for consistency and balance.  I am going to be who I am.  I am going to pursue peace and balance and calm.  I am not going to make abrupt choices and changes.  I am going to slow down and take my time before I make decisions that will effect my life.  Stop making decisions that I have to turn around and try to undo the damage caused by rash moments and turns. 

When I grow up I want to be like my husband.  Mr. Stability.  Mr. I Never Change.  Mr. Balance.  Mr. Turtle.  He is slow and steady.  You never have to question things about him because he remains the same.  He is my hero. 

So, here's to growing up.  I'm only 50, you know.