New Mercies - New Day

If no one ever reads this but me, that's OK.  I am declaring that today is a new day.  Today - TODAY - I begin a new study of the Word of God.  My study.  Well - me and the Holy Spirit.  I have completed so many Bible studies I can't begin to remember them all.  I have sat under many preachers and teachers.  I have had a quiet time for years and I mean years!  I habitually, without fail, got up at 5:00 am to have my time with the Lord and I do that now.  Yet - sometimes I just feel like a hamster on a wheel spinning and spinning and spinning.  The Word says one thing and my life says another.  This preacher or teacher says one thing and another one says something else.  I try very hard to listen to the Spirit of the Lord but sometimes it gets confusing.  I want to know what God says.  I want to know what God wants for me in this life.  I want to know what I need to do to walk in victory.  I want to help others walk in victory.  I do not want to leave one thing under the tree (so to speak) that Jesus wants me to have.  SO - I say that to say this.  TODAY I am beginning my own personal in-depth study of the Word without any outside influences, as much as that is possible in life.  In Proverbs the Word says that the Word is "life to those who find it and health to one's whole body".  I need life and I need health.  I believe God's Word is infallible.  I believe God's Word is Truth.  I believe Jesus is the Word.  So, I am going to stop trying to change me and I am going to see the Word work in my life as I truly give It first place - above man's knowledge.  I am seeking the Wisdom of God.