Weary

Google's definition of weary is:

feeling or showing tiredness, especially as a result of excessive exertion or lack of sleep.

I have experienced weariness in the forms described above but the weariness I'm experiencing now is the weariness "as a result of excessive exertion".  I try too hard to rest, to live, to trust.  Again, as many times before, I feel like that hamster on a wheel running and running and running and not getting anywhere.  Just going in circles.  Retracing the same steps time and time again.  I do not know how to truly rest.

Today my prayer is -

Father, please show me how to rest in You.  Show me how to rest in the finished work of the cross.  My efforts are exhausting.  I feel so weary sometimes. 

The Word says "take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls".  (Matt 11:29 NIV)

Hebrews 4:9-11 says "There remains, then, a Sabbath-rest for the people of God; for anyone who enters God's rest also rests from their works, just as God did from His.  Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will perish by following their example of disobedience."

So, I know there is a rest that I haven't entered.  And I believe that rest is the finished work of Jesus. 

John 14:1 says, "Do not let your hearts be troubled.  You believe in God; believe also in Me."

So, Lord, help me believe in Jesus and His finished work on the cross for me just as much as I believe in You.  Help me rest in what He has done and stop wearing myself out focused on me and what I can do.

When Jesus was buried He was carrying my sins and my sicknesses.  When He arose, He wasn't carrying those things any longer.  He left them behind.  Help me leave them behind also.  I believe with all my heart that it is a package deal - forgiveness and healing.  In Psalms 103 the Word says, "He forgiveth all thine iniquities; He healeth all thy diseases".  I don't always feel forgiven but I am.  I may not always feel healed but the Word says I am.  I may not understand everything.  I certainly don't understand everything.  But I know the Word is truth.  So - I will "Trust in the Lord with all my heart, and lean not unto my own understanding."  I will "In all my ways acknowledge Him and He will direct my steps."  (Prov 3:5-6)

In Jesus beautiful and majestic Name,
Elaine